Heartbreak Dreams, by jennifer
Sunday, January 17, 2010
All night long I had heart rending dreams involving my spouse. In one dream, He admitted to me that he and his girlfriend had actually be together for a very long time, that they had several children and an old Victorian mansion together. We stood on a cliff overlooking the ocean as he told me this. Then he walked away in one direction, toward his girlfriend who I saw standing in the distance, and I got into my VW and drove away in the other direction. I knew I would never see him again and felt a tremendous sadness.
In another dream, I was searching for my spouse in a crowded carnival setting that was sort of Burning Man but not. I had a sense of great urgency, as if something bad would happen to him if I didn’t find him. Finally, I spotted him in the midst of a posh cocktail party, everybody dressed in very fancy clothing, speaking in very refined manner. He was with a good friend of mine, and I realized that they had gotten married some time ago but nobody had ever told me. He was very angry at me for coming to the party and insisted I leave.
I had several other short dreams, more like vignettes, following the same theme.
posted by jennifer at
2:06 PM
1 Comments:
I've had quite a few dreams of heartbreak or heartbreaking dreams. I'm interested in extreme affect in dreams.
I went mad with grief in a dream in which the entire world was taken over by a kind of Fascist regime.
I've noticed in some of these dreams that my body will be wracked with uncontrollable sobbing. It is almost as if the lessened control of the dream state allows me to really go wild with grief.
In one dream I experienced a kind of Blakean expansion to take in both extreme joy and woe at the same time. It was an experience of the incommensurate extremes of both joy and woe as a kind of sublime. My heart was breaking at its limit. A woodcut with thorns or barbed wire appeared and an ironic title came to me.
"The wild hawthorn sheds no tears"
I was shedding tears like mad in the dream whilst I contemplated the title.
I'd be interested in hearing of other's experience of and expressions of affect in dreams.
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